Lay me to sleep
Nov. 28th, 2010 05:29 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
j_gabrielleSo RL is being a bitch. And yeah. A BIG FREAKIN HUGE BISH.
*glares glares glares*
This week was shit. To sum it up that way, yeah. First off, I found out that there were more than some people in my class that were brown nosing put lecturer. I mean, if you brown nose your way to the top it's ok. But their brown nosing was damn fucking obvious. As in, the lecturer announces to the class that he had given 'pity marks' to 'help' us boost our marks. So my 23/40 was pity marks? Fine. I don't even give a shit. But those 'people', they got marks like '33/40' and thus widening the gap between the rest of us and them. I just... I couldn't care if they wanted to use such underhanded tactics to excel in life. I just hope karma comes round to them.
Next thing was that I left my bag on the bus when I was rushing back from the hospital after my blood test. Thank God inside was nothing more than my bottle and my keys. But it was the keys that was the most important; they were the keys to every lock in my room and the key to my room itself.
Putain de vie.
To put the cherry on top of this melted mess, I have three assignments due and a life I'm not too sure I want to lead anymore. I have a doctors appointment in three days, hence why I went to the hospital in the first place that day was for my blood test. And now I'm not too sure I want to know what's the result. The only silver lining I can see is that my parents are coming in a week and a half and I can't wait to see them. We'll be going to the island and gorge ourselves? hahaha... But now, RL is tiring me out and stretching me thin. These days all I'd rather do is sleep in and just do nothing. Is that even possible?
The clique dynamics have changed amongst my class members and I can't wait to see the end of my diploma programme. I really don't want to handle all this anymore. People of whom I thought were my friends are nothing but opportunists, people whom I thought I will be forever friends with are nothing but my mirror image. Is it my fault for this naive view on life? I'm praying fervently for the chance to leave this place. Anyone who wants to take me in? I promise I don't eat much and I don't take up much space. You won't even know I'm there...
*glares glares glares*
This week was shit. To sum it up that way, yeah. First off, I found out that there were more than some people in my class that were brown nosing put lecturer. I mean, if you brown nose your way to the top it's ok. But their brown nosing was damn fucking obvious. As in, the lecturer announces to the class that he had given 'pity marks' to 'help' us boost our marks. So my 23/40 was pity marks? Fine. I don't even give a shit. But those 'people', they got marks like '33/40' and thus widening the gap between the rest of us and them. I just... I couldn't care if they wanted to use such underhanded tactics to excel in life. I just hope karma comes round to them.
Next thing was that I left my bag on the bus when I was rushing back from the hospital after my blood test. Thank God inside was nothing more than my bottle and my keys. But it was the keys that was the most important; they were the keys to every lock in my room and the key to my room itself.
Putain de vie.
To put the cherry on top of this melted mess, I have three assignments due and a life I'm not too sure I want to lead anymore. I have a doctors appointment in three days, hence why I went to the hospital in the first place that day was for my blood test. And now I'm not too sure I want to know what's the result. The only silver lining I can see is that my parents are coming in a week and a half and I can't wait to see them. We'll be going to the island and gorge ourselves? hahaha... But now, RL is tiring me out and stretching me thin. These days all I'd rather do is sleep in and just do nothing. Is that even possible?
The clique dynamics have changed amongst my class members and I can't wait to see the end of my diploma programme. I really don't want to handle all this anymore. People of whom I thought were my friends are nothing but opportunists, people whom I thought I will be forever friends with are nothing but my mirror image. Is it my fault for this naive view on life? I'm praying fervently for the chance to leave this place. Anyone who wants to take me in? I promise I don't eat much and I don't take up much space. You won't even know I'm there...
