Lay me to sleep
Nov. 28th, 2010 05:29 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
j_gabrielleSo RL is being a bitch. And yeah. A BIG FREAKIN HUGE BISH.
*glares glares glares*
This week was shit. To sum it up that way, yeah. First off, I found out that there were more than some people in my class that were brown nosing put lecturer. I mean, if you brown nose your way to the top it's ok. But their brown nosing was damn fucking obvious. As in, the lecturer announces to the class that he had given 'pity marks' to 'help' us boost our marks. So my 23/40 was pity marks? Fine. I don't even give a shit. But those 'people', they got marks like '33/40' and thus widening the gap between the rest of us and them. I just... I couldn't care if they wanted to use such underhanded tactics to excel in life. I just hope karma comes round to them.
Next thing was that I left my bag on the bus when I was rushing back from the hospital after my blood test. Thank God inside was nothing more than my bottle and my keys. But it was the keys that was the most important; they were the keys to every lock in my room and the key to my room itself.
Putain de vie.
To put the cherry on top of this melted mess, I have three assignments due and a life I'm not too sure I want to lead anymore. I have a doctors appointment in three days, hence why I went to the hospital in the first place that day was for my blood test. And now I'm not too sure I want to know what's the result. The only silver lining I can see is that my parents are coming in a week and a half and I can't wait to see them. We'll be going to the island and gorge ourselves? hahaha... But now, RL is tiring me out and stretching me thin. These days all I'd rather do is sleep in and just do nothing. Is that even possible?
The clique dynamics have changed amongst my class members and I can't wait to see the end of my diploma programme. I really don't want to handle all this anymore. People of whom I thought were my friends are nothing but opportunists, people whom I thought I will be forever friends with are nothing but my mirror image. Is it my fault for this naive view on life? I'm praying fervently for the chance to leave this place. Anyone who wants to take me in? I promise I don't eat much and I don't take up much space. You won't even know I'm there...
*glares glares glares*
This week was shit. To sum it up that way, yeah. First off, I found out that there were more than some people in my class that were brown nosing put lecturer. I mean, if you brown nose your way to the top it's ok. But their brown nosing was damn fucking obvious. As in, the lecturer announces to the class that he had given 'pity marks' to 'help' us boost our marks. So my 23/40 was pity marks? Fine. I don't even give a shit. But those 'people', they got marks like '33/40' and thus widening the gap between the rest of us and them. I just... I couldn't care if they wanted to use such underhanded tactics to excel in life. I just hope karma comes round to them.
Next thing was that I left my bag on the bus when I was rushing back from the hospital after my blood test. Thank God inside was nothing more than my bottle and my keys. But it was the keys that was the most important; they were the keys to every lock in my room and the key to my room itself.
Putain de vie.
To put the cherry on top of this melted mess, I have three assignments due and a life I'm not too sure I want to lead anymore. I have a doctors appointment in three days, hence why I went to the hospital in the first place that day was for my blood test. And now I'm not too sure I want to know what's the result. The only silver lining I can see is that my parents are coming in a week and a half and I can't wait to see them. We'll be going to the island and gorge ourselves? hahaha... But now, RL is tiring me out and stretching me thin. These days all I'd rather do is sleep in and just do nothing. Is that even possible?
The clique dynamics have changed amongst my class members and I can't wait to see the end of my diploma programme. I really don't want to handle all this anymore. People of whom I thought were my friends are nothing but opportunists, people whom I thought I will be forever friends with are nothing but my mirror image. Is it my fault for this naive view on life? I'm praying fervently for the chance to leave this place. Anyone who wants to take me in? I promise I don't eat much and I don't take up much space. You won't even know I'm there...
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Date: 2010-11-28 01:12 pm (UTC)People who just kiss ass to get ahead will never be successful in life, because eventually there will be someone who isn't impressed by flattery and they'll get their asses handed to them because they have no actual skill. =)
Did you get your bag back??? Or is it still lost? D:
Even if you don't want to know the test results, if there's something wrong it's better to know it sooner rather than later so that you can take care of it properly. <3
And lol yeah it is possible to sleep in and just do nothing, but it's really not as fun as it sounds. That's more or less what I've been doing for years? LOL. xDDD
If I had my own place, I'd totally take you in, bb. <333333333333333333333333
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Date: 2010-11-28 02:05 pm (UTC)My bag... It's lost forever.... ;~~~; So is the Jang Geun Suk badge my ex bought for me.... /makes a river with her tears
Yeah... I guess you're right. About the test results. But I... I'm just scared. Lets put it that way.
Hrmm... You've been sleeping in for years? :DD Seosaengnim~~! Or should I just go 'Unnnniiieeee~~~~'? I seem ti be unable to sleep in; my body literally 'On's itself at 9 a.m. Ah. This mechanical life I lead...
/rubs herself against you like a cat
If you had a place I swear I'll take the couch. I don't snore and I will clean your gaff. ^^
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Date: 2010-11-28 10:41 pm (UTC)Aww, bb ;~~~~; At least you didn't have your wallet in there? Or a credit card, or your ID? /wipes your tears away
I actually understand, about being scared of the results. I only recently made a doctors appointment for the first time in, like, 7 years, because I'm scared that something might really be wrong? D: But if there is something wrong, it's better to know sooner so that you can take care of it before it's too late? D:
Ahahaha~~~~ you can call me whatever you want? xD My body does that too! Except I automatically fall asleep at 7am. ^^;;; Unless I drink tons of coffee~~~~~
/scratches behind your ears :D
I don't know what a gaff is~ but I appreciate that rofl. But really, you don't want to live in the ghetto with drug dealers and gang members and drunk people and teenage hellions everywhere~ D:
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Date: 2010-11-29 03:51 pm (UTC)/snuggles
Unnie~ ♥ I'll feed you tonnes of coffee, no worries! A gaff is a slang for your own place/crib? hahaha... Pardon the utter butchering of British slangs. I watch too much Brit TV for it to be even healthy. It's okay. I can be your guard dog! We can protect each other or something...
*woof!* ^^
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Date: 2010-11-28 01:53 pm (UTC)*huggles* You have my deepest sympathies :(
I hate people like that... Stupid stuck ups who suck up to everyone T_T
I hope it gets better! Have fun with your family.
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Date: 2010-11-28 02:31 pm (UTC)It's the only ting that's keeping me going for the next week. I just keep telling myself, "I'll see my parents soon It'll be okay". hahaha...
Thank you hun~ ♥
*determined determined*
Ah~ My life... :)